"As we are approaching a time where same sex laws are to be amended to be okay between two consenting heterosexual adults is underway and the word ‘globalisation’ being used as a punctuation mark in every conversation about the economy; I can’t help but assume that now we’d never have to argue about whose responsibility is heaviest! Is it of customer service? Sales? Biz development? Too old for my taste that, and someone has to do the job of making your coffee, sort mail and work the switchboard. Why am I any different from the girl who takes bookings from customers, the babe who services the clients needs and the lady who prepares convincing proposals to seek expansion approval from the boss?? Why? Why? Why?? Don’t I work for a living just as all of you? i put her in the same catergory i put ms.saiko and frens where the mindset is, if you don't earn 3k a above a month you are a non consequence, no importance :D yes, sometimes they do flit across my mind >) Neway, at least I managed to tone ms. I-am-so-good-I-got-transferred down a notch by chance when the other day, she was telling me with an air of importance and superiority, how I MUST HAVE HIGH EQ when dealing with callers as they can be very rude and unreasonable *duh!* sometimes. I mumbled a feeble ‘uh-uhh’ and went about doing my work and the twist came when she added with a twinkle in her eye, why I carry such a big bag all the time and I told her of my habit of carrying my school notes and books wherever i go so that I could catch up reading for my assignments. She smiled gleefully and concluded with a “oh! You still schooling ah? What do you study?” and I replied, “applied psychology". *muahahahahah* you should have seen her face turn ash grey and her ability to quickly swallow pooling saliva was impressive! It is at times like this I relish the punch that comes with the mere mention of the word psychology. And I suspect it’s because deep down we all remember that psychology IS the study of the soul :) "It is the little rift within the lute, That by and by will make the music mute, And ever widening slowly silence all."stay sane, amyemeeleap/s *which means 'postscript' i just got to know today :P* : i'm studying my own soul so no worries about me stealing peeks into your left eye ehk!
posted by amyemeelea at 12:20 PM 0 comments
Saturday, November 04, 2006"

Frankly, i dont knoe how ppl will react reading this very interesting post by my 'hater'. Ms Saiko is melah. The nick i gave to myself in GP.com all in the name of partly to do my LI on Mat Rock n have a taste of being used n also used mat Rocks. Of coslah bila ada mat mestilah ada minah karen or minah rock n this emeelea sani, janda sekkkononnyer yg beranak 3, was one dat i stumbled upon. We started well with exchanging of books since she was a sucker to Jostein Gaarder just like i do. I mean i still do but not sure bout this english terrer nak jadi psychologist. So knew her fr belum cerai to dah cerai. I dont knoe how true was her frenship to me then but i knoe dat she was a nice n i admire her a lot before as a smart n good isteri plus wife. However, things turn sour when i noticed she slowly changed to a sophisticated werking mum to a most complex lady who later want a divorce for her own liberty, i guess. Suddenly, she hated me despite of me still staying near after her divorce. The last meeting was after the KL trip that i chose to rush all the way after my date to have fun w her n help them to get cheaper tixs back. No big deallah cos wats impt at that time is seeing her happy makes me more happy. Next morning, reality sucks in when i realized how difficult she put herself in by doing things dat she shudnt do while in marriage. I realized i looked up to the wrong person. How could a mum that said n really prove thru actions that she love her kids can be so wrong at certain actions chosen by her? She asked me if i am a good mother n i replied heavily, "Only you knoe whether u are doing the right thing or not. Think about it." I left n then later she got offended by my xanga post *i thinklah* dat i kononyer heboh-hebohkan her keburukkan in the cyber world n partly too cos of my insensitive 2-cents opinion about menyusahkan anak-anak in cerai ke hapa. Aku pun tak ingat but a bit heaty btw she, ayin n me. Oh n the statement she made earlier about not sama level since gaji tak setinggi 3k...dat was made after she hina my proficiency in bahasa penjajahan n i went like at the end of the day, my english no good also i am the one w a degree n earning 3k a mth. Terus dia naik angin n cakap aku sombong pulak padahal diakan baru angkuh ngan kefasihan dia berbahasa penjajah. Saiko juga dia ni...lebih daripada aku. Tup tup, she taking up applied psychology. Bagus pulak ada wawasan hendak dapat gaji lebih.

I always tell myself n my students dat penghinaan is peringatan drpd Allah betapa kerdilnya kita di mata-Nya. Thus, Alhamdulillah dalam ada yg mengasihi ada juga yg membenci untuk kebaikan kita bersama.