Posted to First Toa Payoh Sec.
Is it to realize dat my lil bro had been using his frens name?
Is it to monitor him but first thru his frens who happen to be my students?
Is it to see again those ppl from the Indie scene since their siblings are my students?
Is it to confirm dat Isrin and Yunis are two ppl dat u shudnt have even glance in ur whole lifetime?
Is it also to realized dat Isrin is capable of using black magic to satisfy his nympho cravings?
I believe dat First Toa Payoh going to teach me a lot of things about my past and future.
Is it because of wat i went thru gonna made me suitable to relate to these kids?
Dats not possible cos i cant let them into my private life all in the name of professionalism.
Probably, its more of to safeguard my reputation and the people around me. Frankly, i dont think Shaiful's family can accept me due to my past.
Regret, nope i dont. I am thankful dat despite all the shits i put myself into, i want to be a better person and striving towards it tog w Shaiful. I cant make everyone accept me and my history but for as long as there is even one person who can sincerely accept my past and wat i am as from dis step to the next, then its all Syukur to ALLAH. They have their right not to like me and find me disgusting for wat i had done but its also my right to look forward and face the consequences of my past mistake with my head high looking forward to a better me. I just hope Allah give me the strength and protect me from those ppl like Yunis and Isrin. Surimah said dat they will never give up especially Yunis. However, i tell myself this if i fail and its gonna make her happy, let it be cos i knoe dat failure gonna give me a chance to learn and be fearless.

... Yeah, i knoe my frens reading this gonna laugh. Sorry for my emo self but this is one of the rare moments i express. I pray too that u all not gonna meet anyone who is connected to these ppl. I wont want the ppl i love to be hurt by them. As for my lil brother and his frens, this holiday after the camp... i am gonna grab them.