Spidey World

Sumting abt letting go of ur dreams for good...sumting like giving up wadeva u really want or desire in life for own good.I always get confuse w dat...like i think wat i want is always good for me. For instance, my degree right now is wat i desire n want....but will it really make me an all good human cos at times,the more intelligent we are,the more forgetful or proud we will be. Probably also the more i want knowledge n get exposed, the more discontented i will b and all wishy washy. I dont really knoe but i always wanna b reminded to b good at heart. Bersihkan hati, dats wat i want altho maybe on the outlook i am all dirty n dusty.Reminds me of sumone powdery room. I luv spiderman and if u knoe me, u will understand why i luv dat movie, starwars and even X- men.

Its been a cool weekend. We went couch-potatoing n it could haf been betta if Sharky not all upset bout Fat's comment.I sensed Fat not so much of a clean person in the heart since i knew her in IE but everytime,i always wanna erase dat vibes especially when i haf great time w her n Shark. I really wish Fat change. Just now when Shark told me a lilthing about Fat, i kinda whined at dat lucky bitch Fat. Sigh, she gets wat she want but again she deserve it lah. I shud b thankful w my life cos for one thing sure, i dont wanna b like Fat. Neither do i wanna b like anyone. I am not saying i am happy or love my life or myself but see the word 'my' there....u get me. Its mine and wadeva shit it will be, its still sumting dats mine n not urs or anyone's. Again, i dislike ppl going around finding other's flaw just to make them feel better. Dats real assy but i am glad i am not dat cos i knoe i am shitty n nice enuff myself n i dont need such things to make me feel better. Loser, dats wat i can say for those of u who likes doing dat.

Shark...i wish she gonna b ok soon. Yeah, maybe lotsa ppl are upset cos they are fat but HELLO! There are a number of ppl who got pushed around n hated cos they are skinny. At least, she has sumone who loves her n lotsa great frens. Do i haf dat? I dont think so altho yeah, i do haf my family but they dont always understand me or love me. I knoe how fat ppl feel but pls dont shove like u are slim n dont have anything to complain on my face. We haf our own fair whiney or unhappy things. Anyway, Sharky! U are pretty k especially those indian eyes, those blady curly lashes, that sweet chocolate skin, that beautiful curls, that beautiful soulful voice, that cool chic attitude n that smart, witty u. Of cos, u haf ur flaws n shallnot mention it but its not dat much k and i dont think u haf a bad mouth or any undesirable character like those ppl i dislike...so b thankful! Wats important is inside...inside my dear.U are all beautiful in the inner side and thank u for not looking down at me for certain shits i haf in my life. Thank u for dat! I may look strong but there are times i get depressed cos ppl shove my past on my face. So u are nothing like ppli dislike altho at times, u can b hard on urself or ambitious bout helping others. Oklah enuff!

Kak Wan is nice. I like hanging out w her and hope frenship bloom.

Sumtings are best left unspoken.

I miss angelic face a bit...haf not seen her. Wonder how's dat lil baby?