Work...almost 4 days a week, i get to be home only at 6 plus or 7. Its not really felt except that i realized not being able to see Shahindah and Sufiyan. Apart fr that, prep for the new house, honeymoon and reception are piling at one go. It helps a lot too that my last weekends was filled w heart-wrenching FIRST fight. My body broke down today. Last night, it was horribly aching on the joints and i was coughing like a mad dog. That led to really difficult waking up moment. Didnt expect to have a fever til i visit the doctor. He also asked me if i had chicken pox. Nope, i never had... is it good or bad cos i sure wanna think dat i am a healthy child despite of poor heart condition when i was a baby. So, i was advised to visit him later when my temperature has gone down for a vaccination. He sensed gonna be anytime soon if i dont get it ASAP. Medicines especially to bring down the fever and soothe the aching throat. MC dat i sooo adore altho i feel guilty not able to test my sec 1 for their superb understanding on Kata Kerja Transitif and Tak Transitif. Its amazing that they get it faster than me with of cos, i made them hop like rabbit when they got it wrong. Shella smsed me asking me why i didnt come to school. Sweet girl. I do wish that my 2T will be as nice and as obedient as my other students. Its hard to get 2T interested in studies. Even drama enrichment for them...doesnt sound interesting or tame them down. I love them but why is it so tuff handling them and making them realize? God...i asked for strength but i guess i am not strong enuff. The other day, i pushed a boy's face after he slapped his friend. He was upset with me, okay but after that he is rude again. The boy dat was slapped didnt appreciate me at all and was rude to me yesterday. Rational dont sink into them...what will. They knoe they are wrong but they are not bothered. Too egoistic dat it hurts me.

Sigh...thinking about them will just make me more sick. I am out of ends always wanting to improve them. Frankly, i need help with them. Desperately cos it hurts to see them ruin.