I woke up early to watch Oprah and did my SOW. Finished the Term 1 for upper sec and i will fill it up more since Fendi wants a full detailed SOW.Btw, the interview was on The Presley's ladies. Pretty interesting and i luv Priscilla look...check out the gorgeous thick tresses and the enchanting beautiful pair of eyes. Lisa Marie...i like her deep rock n roll growl. My attention wasnt really brought to them tho i knew there was like a big hoo-ha about she marrying Michael Jackson long time A go. Obviously, i learnt a lot from watching Oprah 'teaching' in her Harpo Studio. Mass media, despite me hating the whole manipulations dat happened together with it...i cant deny dat i do learnt and still learning a lot from it. The song 'Raven' is very nice and i really like the music. Its like breezing against me sorta like a mild adrenaline inspiration if its vocabulary legal for me to do that. Pretty much imagining that i am blessed with those curls as the song breeze thru my locks and kisses my face. Feelingkan...i knoe dat this can be sooo meluat. It is beginning to freak me a bit now.

Yesterday, we went for a massage. Shaiful really needed it and loving every moment of it. Then we ate at KFC and suddenly i was irritated by his need to gorge himself and also not being extra sensitive plus discreet to my disturbance. Ok, i was soooo mentally and visually disturbed by this girl who was wearing an ultra short top and a very very low hipster. Just an inch lower and to put it bluntly, i could see her pussylah. WTF the mum is thinkinglah? I knoe u want your daughter to be pretty but mind me, obviously not cheap right. Frankly, i think some Asians has almost lose it on the ethics of dressing. Its fine wearing hipster or wat say have u but not til i can obviously peep at her private area. However in my anger, i created a big mistake by venting it out on my husband's lack of speed in sensitivity. I hate it when i speak to him as if he is a kid. But it just flew out and after that, i will have an immediate bolt of regret setting in my heart. I think i do bring my husband down without realizing it when i expect him to knoe instantly of wat i am thinking. There could be a time later that i would slit myself for hurting him. God, pls help me!!!!

Sometimes, i wanna let out how horrible i feel as a wife when i unintentionally hurt my husband. But i knoe letting it out on ppl will only make things worst cos they probably gonna use it against me later when i am all lovey-dovey with my husband or make themselves feel so much better than me by choosing my weaknesses as a human being. I am not prepared for that shitlah when wat i need most is HELP. I luv him tau.

PS: I saw Radziahlah peeping into the massage parlour.