Okay...i knoe i posted already but i want to post again after reading Shakiki's multiply.
Minah kawin-kawin...looking at the layout of my blog, i betta she think i am one when she designed this layout for me. Hate it lah tho i appreciate the effort. First seeing it, i really feel its very kental n wat was she thingking. My URL shud be change to tunangbliss.blogspot.com or lizaluvshaiful.blogspot.com or even inakkahwin.blogspot.com. Ada lirik lagu awi pulak tu. Damn! She mocked me thru her designlah actually. Yeah! Shakiki...tak baik u buat gitu tau kat me. However, i still keep this blogskin cos i sincerely appreciate ur work of art with a pinch of salt.

Frankly, is it really bad to be minah kahwin-kahwin? Asking myself. It gets too much when i read blogs about ppl sooo in cloud 9 and like boasting abt their strength in love. But...i always tell myself, tengah luv luv mestilah kental...lagi lagi kalau minah melayu. If i say that i am sure that diorang nak kahwin bukan pasal nak keep up to their frens or watsoeva, i am sure others will say not true n they can prove it. So lets reflect and ask myself? Do i kahwin just cos i nak sama league ngan my frens who banyak dah cerai or cos, i tak nak jadi andartu since many ladies of my age n qualifications are worried of dat? I used to think like dat looong time ago when i was 21-25. However in between i terhenti kejaplah sebab sad to say n hate it too, i got deviated to ehem ehem.Always wanting to be diff, kalau org ini macam gini...i tak nak sama-sama. Very tiringlah and thru my experience, very stupid too. Wat do i get? Cuckoo nest and self-exhaustion in stupidity. However being very stupid makes us become more smarter and less an oxymoron fighter.

I choose to marry Shaifulbahri because i love him tho it only gets stronger day by day, sumtimes. I choose to marry Shaifulbahri because i believe he will work his ass off to provide food on the kids plates, my plate n his plate. I choose him because i want to believe dat he will not break my heart thus breaking our family in the future. I choose him because i am mentally, emotionally and physically ready to embark on a better phase of life towards Allah together with him as my life partner. I may get excited and irritating a bit to frens who think dat i am like pressurizing them unintentionally. Didnt knoe and didnt realize it dat i had worn two badges of minah kahwin-kahwin too. I realized its pretty normal and its all a phase but like it or not, it erks sum ppl n even myself a bit. If it will make ppl any better, i wont marry this year but will it make ppl better if they only have one less limelight whose light is so dim sorta like my dimwitted brain n dimshiny account extinguished? No right, so i dont think its very harmful for me to get married at the multipurpose hall and under his mum's void deck this yr n next yr. However, i can be even even more less harmful by not talking abt my wedding plans to others except for my two frens who are helping me w the wedding. After this, hehe i change my password again cos the last thing i wanna do is to make my frens or others less individualistic cos each n every stranger is a wonderful individual with own eccentricity (ada such word eh?).

A reminder to myself to always always not talk so much abt my happiness. It can sound like a boastlah when too much. Best thing, i never knoe when is too much.