Looking at photos, made me want to go back to my fav pastime.
Clicking pics of people but this tis time, faces of my students.
My passion, my hatred, my love and my anger.
They sumtimes turn me into a psychotic control freak.
Exasperating but why this heart want to go far and believe in them.
I love them and i REALLY hope that they turn out well and good in life.
Be a normal human dats so wonderful in the heart and able to raise good family.
Its okay actually if they dont remember me tho it may hurt but whats important is that they turn out to be a good hearted human who are responsible and do what is right and abstain from the wrongs. Shall i click again since now, i dont need to print pics but can save it as soft copies. Lets hope the camera is fine.

Sharky grandma just joined Allah today at 6pm. I was kinda glad that Sharky took it well. Got me thinking about my grandmas. I have been taking them for granted without realizing it. So distant. Dont know how to be as close as the times when i was a kid. Growing up distant people. Makes the heart colder and ashamed of lil affections. It seems like i probably going to be a cold hearted mum just like my parents were. Y God closes this heart a bit? Have to do sumting about this and quit whining cos i might end up as depressed as before. I want to dance, hop around and laugh. I feel that my life right now has been a bit uptight.

Pls let me BREATHE!
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K, i think Leen wants me to do this.




10 Favourites
color: i realized yellow made me cheery.

food: pasta

song: everlasting by MSP

movie: has to be Pirates of the Carribean (an obsession)

sport: hmmm okay, badminton is ok ok.

season: autumn

day: Saturday

ice cream flava: mudslide

drink: chrysanthemum tea is safe

cartoon: Billy n Mandy

9 Current
mood: frustration

taste: tuna spaghetti

clothes: batik dress

desktop: ACER LAPTOP

toenail color: dull

time: 9:20 pm

surrounding: a lil noise fr the tv.

annoyance: students... nope my expectations

thought: slaughter the students... i am nutz

8 Firsts
boyfriend: Eugene Low Ying Wei

bestfriend: Haryani Idris

crush: My foster brother's pakistani friend, Intikap

movie: Indon horror movie

piercing: 7 i guess or was it 5

lie: when i told my mum dat i didnt bite off the french loaf during Ramadhan.

music: P Ramlee lah but cant remember wat song.

Car: Dad's one ah? Mitsubishi Lancer.

7 Lasts
drink: ice water

car ride: Shark's mum car drove by Fadzli n of cos w Shark

crush: This cool a bit like Ayin Karen's face but way way cooler n manly who was in my seni class. Basket! The gf has gorgeous looking eyes and she is very nicelah to me. Anyway more basket cos i am engaged.

movie: Pirates of the Carribean II

phonecall: Shaifulbahri

cd played: MSP bloodline

cry: a few nights back cos i was too mean to my fiance

6 Have you evers
dated one of your bestfriend: yes, i am an idiot

broken the law: shit happens even now

arrested: luckily NO

skinny dipped: erks, i am in the millenium n Singapore

been on tv: yeah, the first was when i was 12

kissed someone you didn't know: okay, i can be cheap n clueless (BIMBO)


5 Things you are wearing
1) ring

2) scrunchie

3) batik dress

4) panty

5) glasses

4 Things you've done today
1) teach

2) screamed at students

3) finished setting my 4N prelim papers

4) screamed at my stubborn cats

3 Things you can hear right now
1) Hafiz munching his dinner

2) mum talking to dad

3) the tv

2 Things you can't live without
1) my faith

2)my sanity

1 Thing you do when you're bored
pick a fight