I heard rumour has it dat we have to report back in Sg by the 8th of May.
Dats not possible for me since i have a performance and exam on the 12th and 13th of May.
We going to perform Randai at Balai Seni Lukis, Kuala Lumpur and probably, my next 50% to good grades gonna be dependent on that. I need to inform Victor Ong so dat i can report to work later than the others. Yeah, i knoe i am looking forward to be back in Sg and werk towards my ceremony in Nov but i really want to perform at Balai Seni Lukis. Achievement, self-satisfaction and probably a tick in my rapport for future job opportunities. Sumting i am looking forward to be proud of since i had never been a dancer, a dedicated traditionalist and a good malay teacher.
Sumting dat i wanna look back and be proud of myself to have UM really bring up my best. Maybe next lesson, i ask Zuraida to take a pic of me doing Randai w the others.


Frankly, i have not been in the greatest mood. Too stressed with my LI, assgs (tho not a lot), period and probably myself. Many times i really feel dat i have not done much to prepare myself for the next step. The simplest 5 times prayers pun tak ditunaikan most of the time. How can the world be a little better if i put the matter of sujud kepada Allah lightly? Nonoi...grrr i was swearing and cursing when my housemates and Shark talked about her. Its like all i wanted to do was rush back to Sg and really smashed their heads especially the mum. I was screaming hysterically to my own race. We Malays can be such a real BIG SCREWER!!! I questioned about motherly love. I have a few frens and acquaintances who are guilty of shot-gun cases, but during that moment i really look up to them. One of them actually got a degree and now have a good family despite screwing up in secondary school days. She has a kid out of wedlock but i really looked up to her at how she actually learn from all of it and still wanna hold her heads up high for her kids and herself. I may not really knoe her but i believe dat she dont go around feeling sorry for herself dat she no longer want to progress. Why sumtimes ppl create another chain of mistakes and blame it on their pasts? Poor Nonoi but i am really glad dat Allah took her away from the screwed world created by her 'parents'.