How do you feel after a HEARTBREAK?

Heartbreak flushes my self-esteem down the bowl. It makes me a total loser and you all know that i am a sore loser. Cheated and used are two other adjectives that totally complements the adjective 'dumb-ass'. It made me feel worst than a bimbo cause I do not have head-sized breasts. Thus, deteriorates me to a level lower due to 'things i dont have'. Its worst when the other party said that all his confession was untrue and he didnt mean it. Even more worst when he denys it and accused you of being 'delusional'. Pausing to ponder, those experiences actually more lunatic than having your partner caught red-handed two-timing you. At least, the latter is a pure visible scoundrel than the earlier one who is a smart, sweet talk hypocrite. He made himself believable as 'A Good Person' by stamping on you and making you believe that you are the one with problem. Scarry, right. Those who believe him speaks as if they are the one going throught the whole thing as you but if they are really the one experiencing as YOU, they will not be accusing you of being delusional, psychotic or blah-blah. Caught in such situations always make me turn to my belief on Allah. It makes me stronger because I know that the truth may not be reveal here in this life but later at Padang Mahsyar. Probably that is the reason why whenever my name is being splashed with mud, I am never bothered much to wipe it and just walk away because it is just greatly fine and perfectly secured that Allah knows the truth. However the heart is in pain and i learnt not to trust people with words because nowadays, even 'fools' are seen as genius just through their mere display of fine vocab and 'perfect' grammar in a factoid.

Mum is cooking ikan pari masak pecel for lunch. I thought of how Sharky going to love such dish. Okie, ikan pari masak pecel is actually baked stingray cooked in 'cekor and cili padi' coconut milk. Damn poweeeer and its a javanese dish in Batu Pahat. My mum was from there. U can even use bake chicken if you dont fancy stingray. Yummy yum yum just to eat it with steaming hot rice.

I got the t-shirt that i like. Naz, remember that t-shirt. Oh Yeah! Naz, picnic need to be cancelled because i am going back to KL. But sure will make it another day because i love picnic.