I find fierce or stern looking man with a very gentle heart n sweet voice very attractive. Lawrence Fishburne in Fled last night was so attractively sexy. It was a typical police n mafia movie. A computer geek who is also a con man was being hunted by mafias cos of a diskett. Laurence Fishburne was the undercover cop dutied to protect this man and also break the Mafia. These two were chased by mafias, corrupted millitary officers and good cops. Eventually, they were saved cos a good cop discovered the whole truth and went all heart out to uphold justice. Typical rite but i always like such movies cos it gets me jumping on how they gonna reach the ending and how others find out the truth. After dat movie, i switched to Channel 5 for my fav American Top Model. Luv dat show and i kinda adore April's unique face dat also beams intellectual aura. She is half Japanese but she looks so Asean. Sara n Mercedes are the typical pretty eye-candy bunch, both too are not pure caucasian. Wondering how Marley's kids and Kak Ara's kids gonna look like? Interesting blend of sweet mocha n white milk.Was bored and couldnt sleep. I knew dat it was sumting dat i refused to think dat was bothering me so i took the guts to call him and yeah, we chatted for like 2 hrs on manipulative world,gayism, teenagehood again and travel. Probably i talked a bit too much abt Gene and i could sense his discomfort. I haf to snap out of it especially now since i am seeing Gene's best fren in secondary school.

Woke up..yeah i miss her a lot. She is in the kitchen making kuehs and all i want was to help her but hurt stopped me. Gonna hang out w Shark n maybe buka w her if he is busy. I plan to watch Shark Tale and yeah i do wanna hang out w him but his tight schedule demands me to conform so i do not wanna ask much. Anyway, i am kinda happy dat i am going out w my frens. Sharky gonna cook ayam merah for her dear fren Dina and so gonna help this chef to look for stuff. Meeting her at Guthrie bldg at 2pm...which means i haf to get ready real soon. Taking the bus. Sheesh, i am too lazy to get ready altho i wanna go out. I wanna talk to my mumlah, she is my antidote but i hurt her and she definitely hated me. Being kids, its also a sacrifice and in my case i shud just eat up my own unhappiness rather than hurting my parents actually. I made a pt, next time if i dont like sumting i just go out so dat conflicts will be avoided. If those Indons cum, i am just gonna go out n only cum back at night. Life is a bed of roses w the one u love cos roses not all nice, roses haf thorns dat prick.