Selah

I end up not really studying last nite cos its been a long time since i chat w 2 chappos who are willing to layankan me. One entertained me w exorcist n motorcycle diaries while Sharky, she entertained me w issues and yeah our baldi calligraphy stuff. Erna was online too, kinda stressed w studies. Talked w my primary school fren, Pendek, and heh we both actually had a crush on the same girl (Herdayu). Ok of cos, i am a girl n its not right to dream like Pendek. Pendek didnt change much cos he still look like EMF singer. He showed his kpo niece, his sis's daughter who was a senior in my secondary school. Pendek was kinda upset dat he didnt notice me or bump onto me after p6. I saw him actually once in Sec 1 but i just watched him fr a far before i walked home. Why? Cos i dont think its really necessary for me to say hi other than i am very shy and always think dat i dont matter to ppl.Other than that for last night, i just found simple pleasure at observing the online personas.

Woke up and study a bit. So i haf actually completed the definitions, concepts n influences of Malay traditional houses. Surah An-Nahl, ayat 81 is kinda be my memory work n strength perhaps. Howeva, i am not expecting As much this year cos of poor attendance and being myself. I am not smart or even hard working and i am so driven by mood even in studies and everything. Hey Yeah! I got to watch Jamie's kitchen again. My fav show altho last nite i miss American Top Models. I like Jamie and i luv his trainees. Read angelic's face blog and she was talking abt sumone dat i once curious to get to knoe cos i think she is intelligent. Howeva, things got nasty gos she kinda potray dat u need to be smart enuff to talk to her and i slashed her w my mean sword. I regret dat very much and i apologized to her for baldi assuming things abt her. U see apologizing is good but once u hurt ppl especially strangers dat u dont knoe, u dont expect much to erase the word stranger k. Probably, its not meant to be but wats important i realized my mistake and apologize.

I haf to go to Sharky's pl to snap sum pics. That Sharky is lucky cos she gonna attend American Idols concert for free. Listening to Selah by Lauryn Hill. She influenced me w R&B stuff while i influenced her w rock jiwang songs perhaps. Did i say marley called me fr US? She did n i luv her, i luv her. She is happy and missing Malay Singapore too. I pray for her happiness cos this is the time for her after going thru a lot alone w/o parents. Marley wasnt a lucky child but wat she went thru made her stronger n tuffer. I want her to be a lucky wife, a lucky mother and all lucky from the day she married til the day she left earth silently on her bed warm w love.Amin.