Ego vs Money.

Haf i reached the peak of intolerable?
Money again has always been a sensitive issue to me and no matter, how ppl didnt mean to offend me much, it affect me deeply.
Recalling: Yeah, i haf parents especially mum who can provide things for me when i am in need but sincerely, i neva asked for money from my parents when i am working and earning. So dont similarise me w my sis cos farkin hell, u dont knoe anything and this goes to me too. I am offended but its not your fault. Secondly, yeah i am a forgetful assy girl who forget simple things like on the bloody switch and even forget to bring my sim-card. No obligation to go to school with me altho of cos, i will feel offended. Sorry, if the silly me didnt get the cab no cos farkin well, dat operator just told me to be down there in 5 mins and slammed, she was gone. So sorry for wasting ur money. Tho u two ladies haf a soft spot in me, i cant take anyone even my family when dealing w money. I am so sensitive when cum w money.

No Seni Bina class today. Was in the canteen earlier w Amizah, Halimah n Fat. Fat left earlier and wadeva she likes it, i dont care much. Was hearing discussion about UM Pilihanraya. I haf always admire Faizah and if i am a guy, i am sure gonna go after her. She is a lady w admorable qualities other than a soothing eye-candy to me. Politics haf always been dirty even at this early level. Different beliefs and principles separate ppl. I know Faizah is sincere and hearing her, made me even notice her. Oh Yeah! No tutorial tomorrow, i am thinking of going back earlier but still contemplating.

Birthday cuming and i am guilty of not being so much of a controlled girl this few days. I must control my anxiety dat can be offensive to ppl especially friends. My pranky self resurfaced yesterday just to prove at how sum girls got so lamely excited abt sumting dat she herself was kinda ego abt. U knoe how girls like pretend not to be bothered but when u kinda intrigued them w their own not bothered attitude, they got bothered. I prove it upon an old fren and its really childishly lame but at least, a satisfaction on me as a way to destress fr baldi tatabhs assg. U haf to be childish to prove another fella closeted childishness. Space gonna b helpful.

Huda.....hmmm i am thinking. Shud i go see u today since i promised u? I dont really mindlah but how to b lost at night? Not everything can b the same.

Ps. Looking forward to Briyani by mum on my bday.