Leaving blues

I am thinking of changing the theme song for my blog. Ok, i guess u ppl wondering why am i not back yet or best, already knew the answer why. =)
I always haf this blues of leaving my family and home. Always and not cos i hated KL or i love Sg so much but actually cos of my family. My family dont really talk much and the showering of love only cum once a while w lil things dat parents do. Mum's great cooking dat makes the kitchen warm everyday and everytime except Sunday. A place where my lil tummy filled w love. Dad being dad, only talk when necessary. Kinda reserved in his thots n feelings unless u really sit down w him or when he thinks u need help. Other than that, just silence dats so warm n secured tho at times i am always dying for attention cos i am the only one in the family w diff interest. Other than dat, a kiss on the forehead, ensuring me sound asleep at night and also lil talk to me always help to remedy myself. Those things are so precious to me dat if i lost them, i will me more dead than now. How clingy i am altho i always like to b alone. Not really, loneliness kinda eat me up slowly now and i really feel it.

Listening to Dancing nancies. I luv them and i am gonna join angel face in her silent dancing nancies fan club. Unfortunately, the cd kinda distorted a bit and was wondering is it part of it. I caught all the 3 shows. Capturing every moment of Dj just to lessen the pain of missing n regret. A lil boy in red put a smile on my face and i actually laffed forgetting Dj for a while. He looks kinda distracted last night but in all, Dancing nancies were great. I wish green car got to see it. Yeah this fren of mine, she changed her car to a green chevrolet. I luv her car and she luv driving me around. Before, its always had been a road trip together and getting scared w scenes fr the road in Sg and Johore. I luv her tho i was upset dat she couldnt cum n see the gig w me. We kinda quarelled a bit and its our first quarrell after years in frenship. When i was ok, i apologized and things gonna b ok perhaps..it sure will. One thing about me, i hate ppl saying sorry when i am angry and rubbing the past on my face. Green car did dat and she shudnt cos the reason i didnt go for dat Salsa thing was cos i dont haf a freaking 30 bucks. Another thing abt me, money has always been a sensitive issue for me but only this time w new frens around, i learnt to say out dat i dont haf money n pls spare a thot for me. Pardon me ppl.

Yeah, i met Selina too. She wasnt feeling gd basically cos a regret she felt abt sumting. Talking to her suddenly trigger sumting in my mind. Howeva, i brushed it off thinking dat my story is different. I told her wat Angel face advice and sumhow it makes her kinda positive. Altho she did cry but she realized, she made the decision n haf to stay to it altho she neva want to lose him. Its hurtful but i just hugged her and hope dat God gonna give us another chance in love. Selina n I, had sumkinda similarities perhaps dat we are too scared of relationship cos we had been thru heartbreaks. We part cos she need a time on her own.

I am going back to KL today at night. Yeah, read Huda's blog. Huda, pls pardon me k for saying ur face is oily. I didnt mean harm dear but i am just being me. u are so pretty and i adore u especially those big eyes n dat long hair i saw when i slept over. U haf sparkling beautiful eyes dat just brings out the happiness in u. I didnt notice the oiliness last night cos ur eyes are just as smiley as ur lips. I didnt mean harm huda but just a sister baldi kpo thingy dat at times, i wanna wipe ur pretty face just like how i wanna wipe a lil stain on Sharky's face whenava she messes up in eating. Just like how naggy i am when Dj ate his food and messes up the table. Huda, pls pardon me k. But i am very sincere and neva mean to shame u. Miss u n hope we see each other in KL. She is one girl dat i will only realize how much i miss her til i see dat pixie smiley face in tudung.