I am so boreeeeeeeeeeed n such a bummer. My life consist of pc and smelling pillow wheneva i am at home. Too lazy to go out cos i am too lazy to made myself up. I need an injection into my life..a zest of active attention and adventurous dates to get me going. So embarassed of myself. I need to be on my toes and i miss guys who made me feel like dat altho its emotionally draining n i dont wanna be in dat turmoil.

Chatted w monkey n she called me a BITCH. Hehe! In a gd way like she found a fren who can be honest w her and said out her opinion as well as getting hit by her. She gave me this url to read and yeah, i am partly educated on the socialite's views on Mats n Minahs. I must say its a typical over-generalization comments by the professor tho interesting n wittyly summarized in kinda a superficial manner. Maybe i dislike his views but i luv his observations. He is on his way to self realization and getting there or maybe he might not even reach the nirvana of self realization. His choice and my pleasure to read, learn, understand yet not to conform and embrace wholly his theory. To me a Mat n Minah is more than wat u see w ur eyes...so kinda not a wholesome mat or minah analysis. Sum smart wolves pulled lamb wool over their bodies knowing the power of superficiality in the mind. Smart alecks. However, such info really helpful to me. Anyway, i do wish dat he read this...a lil advice...if u are Malay, pls dont look down at ur own ppl to highlight ur own uniqueness. U are unique and smart and all...therefore u dont need to cum up w such deteriorating theories on others to prove dat. If u are not Malays, i can understand ur scrutiny but bet in mind....no race is superior than another or deserve to be bombarded just cos they are probably less cultured and less intelligent than ur superiority or ur idealistic view. I shall not remind u of sumone dat u shud remember since we are human. Sorry but the premarital babies stigma on minahs shudnt be the laughing matter in ur relaxation....sure u are aware dat such things dont only occur on minahs cos of mats...its everywhere. Dont put premarital baby to minah as an implication for stupidity or to highlight stupidity only among them. Bleargh! Excuse me, pls practise humility and sensitivity in ur procession to be relaxed, cool, and intelligent. Anyway, i salute him for his observations and interest.

I really couldnt stand it..i really wanna watch Shark tale. Haf to remind myself later to write a letter for Yani and DAMN! I dont haf Fat's no in Sg. She gonna be pissed at me for not calling her yet. Sigh...wat a LOSER am i!